| One of those days... |
[May. 28th, 2009|02:32 pm] |
Where I just know I'm going to need to get all my stress out at the gym later on.
People around here are starting to think I'm some kind of miracle worker...cause they're giving me a day to finish a project that should take a week. Plus it's in the middle of another event that I need to be a part of.
Yay for finding new ways to be everywhere at once! |
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| With a Simple Act |
[May. 22nd, 2009|11:17 am] |
I think I've figured a lot out in the past few days. Yeah, yeah, sure you've heard it before.
In any case, I bought a bunch of books on Amazon.com last night. At heart, I'm a reader. Always have been, always will be. I just love to read and that's a major part of who I am.
Just finished, "The Green Mile". What an amazing book. If you haven't read it yet, I highly recommend you do so.
Also, looking for some new series to try. Any solid recommendations? |
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| Wonder |
[May. 12th, 2009|12:52 pm] |
Every day is better for discovering something new you didn't know before. But as humans, we naturally just want to make things seem normal when they're really not. It's a habit or a part of our nature perhaps.
Watch a bird take flight and tell me that isn't amazing. How the hell can those wings hold up that weight? It's bones are freaking hollow?! Are you kidding me? How in da hell? Heh.
Yet most days we see birds flying in the distance, blink, and our mind just filters it away. It's normal, we see it all the time. Who cares? We've got other stuff to think about and do. If we wanted to really know, we could come home and watch Discovery channel turn our fascination into even more 'meh' attitudes about the amazing stuff in life. Figuring stuff out on your own is sometimes half the fun.
That's why I love my curious mind. I'm always wondering and asking and thinking and considering and inquiring. Makes life just that much more enjoyable and fresh I think.
So in conclusion, I've got a question. Why is it that whenever we see bombs that need disarming in movies...the wires are always colored? Where did that start and is that really how they make bombs? =P |
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| Passing Away |
[Apr. 22nd, 2009|09:15 am] |
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I lost a grandfather on Sat. I only found out today. I can't make it back in time for anything. |
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| Old Scars |
[Apr. 6th, 2009|01:35 am] |
Sometimes they resurface and hurt. When they do, you almost wonder if things will ever be the same. If those scars will continually slow you down, make you question, make you doubt?
I'm working hard to get away from the past that still haunts me. The accusations that I carry, some true and some not. And I keep seeing faces from the past. Those I've hurt, those I've helped, those who I called friends, and those who turned away from me.
Is this what we call growing up?
Then the pain slowly fades away and we smile like it was never there. Because we have to smile to move forward. We can't let others know the depth of the scars.
It's always the night that brings the pain though. It's always the light that keeps me sane. |
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| A Song Worth Having Stuck In My Head |
[Mar. 27th, 2009|03:47 am] |
If tomorrow all the things were gone,
I’d worked for all my life.
And I had to start again,
with just my children and my wife.
I’d thank my lucky stars,
to be livin here today.
‘Cause the flag still stands for freedom,
and they can’t take that away.
And I’m proud to be an American,
where at least I know I’m free.
And I wont forget the men who died,
who gave that right to me.
And I gladly stand up,
next to you and defend her still today.
‘ Cause there ain’t no doubt I love this land,
God bless the USA.
From the lakes of Minnesota,
to the hills of Tennessee.
Across the plains of Texas,
From sea to shining sea.
From Detroit down to Houston,
and New York to L.A.
Well there's pride in every American heart,
and its time we stand and say.
That I’m proud to be an American,
where at least I know I’m free.
And I wont forget the men who died,
who gave that right to me.
And I gladly stand up,
next to you and defend her still today.
‘Cause there ain’t no doubt I love this land,
God bless the USA.
And I’m proud to be and American,
where at least I know I’m free.
And I wont forget the men who died,
who gave that right to me.
And I gladly stand up,
next to you and defend her still today.
‘Cause there ain’t no doubt I love this land,
God bless the USA.
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This one still makes me cry. I think it was Lee Greenwood who did this song? I wish there were more people who felt like he did. I just fear that more and more Americans couldn't sing this song honestly. |
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| Just an Off Day |
[Mar. 21st, 2009|12:33 am] |
Knowing that things are going on in the states that I can't do a thing about frustrates me right now. Thus, today has been a sorta "Meh"/bad day overall. I really wish I could be there to defend myself against accusations or deal with the entire mess...just stop hiding it in the shadows like others are inclined to do.
Today has just been one of those days where you feel like you hit bottom and you know it's going to get better, but it's going to take time to get there.
Oh, one more thing. I figured out something about myself today. It was kinda neat in that, "Huh...that makes sense on why I do this" way. |
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| There is No Constant |
[Mar. 17th, 2009|03:10 am] |
After all, times change, people change. I've changed in many ways.
For some time I've been rather cryptic and distant in many ways. I've changed into a darker person. I've let myself become a darker person. I've kept a lot of things inside and hidden secrets deep down.
And I'm sorry guys. I really am. I may not be the same person you remember because of these things.
The worst part is that a lot of this change came from a series of events where I had no emotional support from the friends that I once leaned on entirely. I had to find a different way of dealing with things instead of relying on those friends I thought were my pillars of support. I'm not going to go into what happened there.
The point to this? It turns out that the whole period of time where I thought those friends had abandoned me... That they were ignoring me or that they just hated me or...well, I had considered many different possibilities. It turns out that not all had done so. It seems that my IMs weren't getting to some people. It is entirely possible that they were blocked because of where I was staying/getting my internet from. I don't know. It was a long enough period of time of no contact to let me settle into my new ways.
I'm not who I used to be. Part of me wishes I could still be what I once was though. |
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| Goodbye America |
[Jan. 6th, 2009|11:16 pm] |
Hello Korea.
PS...no more cell phone. |
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| Airborne... |
[Dec. 15th, 2008|08:40 pm] |
I jumped today. Twice. From 1,250 feet. I know, it's not as high as sky diving, but it's a totally different world, trust me.
It was exhilarating, insane, nerve-wracking, and so much more. It was probably the craziest thing I have done in my life. And I'm looking forward to doing it again tomorrow.
I don't know if I'll ever feel this rush of adrenaline again...but I love it despite feeling exhausted right now. And I've got to get up early again tomorrow. 3 AM early. And do two more jumps. Woohoo...?
Anyways, it was worth going to Airborne school. |
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| Airborne school |
[Dec. 13th, 2008|10:40 pm] |
Monday morning I jump out of a plane at 1250 feet.
I'm looking forward to it while at the same time being nervous. Be praying for me! Gotta make 5 successful jumps from Mon. to Wed. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 17th, 2008|02:12 pm] |
"I sit among my charts and maps
And hear the lonely call of taps
Like the wind across the moon
I pray to God that I am right
Then I send boys off to fight
And travel home in boxes far too soon
God have mercy on my soul
For all the years that I have stole
From the men that follow what I say
And may the families all forgive
The orders I so calmly give
As I march their sons into harms way
And Judgment Day God only knows
If man will reap the pain he sows
What will be the price he has to pay
But down here in the killing floor
Among the crimson rags of war
Each day I live is judgment day
Every day for me is judgment day"
Stolen from a Navy guy's journal. Nonetheless...very true for any officer in the military. |
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| A Day To Remember |
[Nov. 5th, 2006|09:33 pm] |
Remember, remember the fifth of November, the gunpowder treason and plot.
I see no reason for the gunpowder treason to ever be forgot. |
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| Re: WOLVES! |
[May. 7th, 2006|02:47 pm] |
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That's right, this weekend was incredibly awesome. I got to go up to Lucerne Valley and spend a few hours actually with live wolves. Not just from behind a cage, but actually in the pen with them. Oh my goodness...it was the most incredible experience ever! I...I...think honestly that if I could, I never would've left. It was the most memorable experience for me. Few things will be able to compete with that level of coolness. I'll post pictures later. It was just that...well...profound. |
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| A challenge |
[Oct. 31st, 2005|01:05 am] |
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Strange challenge...to list everything and anything you want. So I thought I would give it a try and be thorough. Try not to be too superficial or foolish too.
A home that is my own. A library of books...for there I can find peace like no other. A job that pays well...hopefully as a writer. The same friends and possibly more. Free time. A family...including kids. A bit of randomness each day, just to keep life interesting. To see the world. To make a difference. To get published. To never really lose that childish side of me.
I suppose that's a good list actually...anything else is becoming superficial or foolish...So there we go. |
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| Re: Ponderings |
[Oct. 7th, 2005|12:39 am] |
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Ever wonder what it was like for the scarecrow before Dorothy came to help him? Stuck to a stick, sometimes giving directions to people who just happened to ask.
Ever wonder if anyone can ever truly can capture a sunset in words or will they always come close, but never totally there? Many seem to fall so short of the true beauty that is that moment.
Ever wonder why people procrastinate? Why we do other things when we should be doing work?
Ever wonder why dreams have to end?
Ever wonder what stars are really still shining and which have gone out long ago? After all, the light is still traveling from that distance.
Ever wonder what if the path you should take is the one you'll enjoy or the one that will ensure a future?
Ever wonder what exactly is creativity? Where does it come from and where does it go? Is it like a river that flows at times and trickles at others? Or is it just something like the 'the Force' that is always there? Are there limits on it or only the ones we put there?
Ever wonder if you will ever find that perfect soulmate or if you should just settle down with someone else and give up looking for that 'perfect'?
Ever wonder who is friend and who is foe and what the difference between the two is?
Ever wonder what someone is saying when you're not around?
Ever wonder what it would be like to see the very first drop of rain?
Ever wonder what defines those who will be smart and those who won't? There are always those who never have to study or really work too hard. What makes them different?
Ever wonder...why do we get up day after day to do something that most of us don't enjoy like school so that we can eventually get this thing called a job so that we can earn this paper we call money? Why does paper control our lives so easily?
Ever wonder if water bottles only really contain water?
Ever wonder if there is a moment where time can stop? |
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